Uncharted Territory

                                          

 

Title: Uncharted Territory

Author:  Suz W.

Spoilers:  After Space Race, Avenger 2.0, Birthright, and Evolution (parts 1 and 2) (episode tag)

Feedback: Always welcomed and gratefully appreciated!

Old Stories Referenced: “Whispers of Doubt” and “True Intentions”

Rating:  PG-13, S/J Friendship, Romance, Hurt/Comfort, and Angst.

Summary:  At a high point in their relationship, Sam and Jack come across a barrier that leaves a mark on their hearts.

Disclaimer:  All publicity recognizable characters and places are the property of MGM, Sci-Fi Productions, World Gekko Corp and Double Secret Productions.  This piece of fan fiction was created for entertainment not monetary purposes and no infringement on copyrights or trademarks was intended. 

Copyright:  The original characters, situations, and story are the property of the author.  Copyrighted on July 8, 2007, by Suzanne R. Whitmarsh.  Author’s Notes:  This story follows “Taking Time For Love”.  So we are now entering the dreaded time in Stargate history where Pete is introduced.  Originally, I had planned to leave him out of my series altogether, but since I have spent the last several years doing my best to following the show as closely as possible, I can’t cheat myself or my series.  BUT I will tell you this…I’ve come up with a creative way of explaining his existence in Sam’s life, and if you follow me through these next few chapters in my series, I think you’ll be pleasantly surprised!  And remember, I love to hear from those of you who read my work, so please send me your feedback if you have time!  Thanks for your support!!

Dedication:  This story is dedicated to Aud!  It was great to hear from you again and I want to thank you for continuing to follow my series despite how busy life is for you!  Your support means a lot and it’s because of dedicated fans like you that I continue to write!

 

 

            Jack could feel the sweat coming off his brow in a constant stream.  He was hot, tired, and very frustrated.  Taking one of his hands, he swiped at his brow as he continued to run at top speed.  He knew his body was going to pay for it later, but this was the only way he knew to keep from blowing up at everyone. 

 

            It was early in the month of May, and already summer had taken its hold on the mountainous region of Colorado.  All the surrounding areas around Colorado Springs were experiencing the same humid heat wave, with temperatures climbing into the 90’s and heat indexes even higher still.  With unusually low amounts of rain to report, the summer was shaping up to be brutal.

 

            Jack knew that he shouldn’t go for a run in the middle of a hot day, but with everything that was going on inside his head, he knew he had to get out and try to sort through some of what had been going on before he went crazy.  So choosing the trail that a lot of personnel used because of its proximity to the base, not to mention the shaded areas, Jack had started out at a fast pace and had yet to slow down.

 

            Of course the trail was the same one that he and Sam had used several times together, if for nothing more than to find a few moments alone during stretches of time when they couldn’t get away from the base.  It was also the same one that he had followed Sam on after he’d gotten back from being trapped on Edora.  They had just started seeing each other back then, and Sam had been concerned that his affections for her had changed after she’d seen Laira kiss him goodbye.

 

            Jack slowed down his pace and tried to shake off the old feelings of yesterday.  So much had happened between them since then, both good and bad, but one thing had remained steady and constantly growing…and that was his love for her.  Jack had never loved another woman so much in his life, including his ex-wife, and he knew he’d never love another.

 

            But it was that same love that not only thrilled him, but scared him half to death.  Any idea of his life without her was unfathomable, and so because of this powerful emotion, he was now being forced to make a very hard choice.  The past few weeks had been almost unbearable, but it was that dreaded Monday, two weeks ago, that had sent them both reeling into a new world in which they were lost without the other.

 

            Jack picked back up his original pace again as his mind drifted back to that unexpected morning…

 

            Jack knocked on the door of General Hammond’s office and waited for his invite in.  Upon hearing it, he opened the door.  “Sir, you wanted to see me…”  Jack’s voice faded off quickly when his eyes landed on Sam’s face.  She didn’t look upset, but she did look uncomfortable, as if sitting in here with General Hammond had been torture as they had apparently been waiting on him. 

 

            General Hammond’s voice rang in his head.  “Yes, I did.  Come in, Colonel, and shut the door.”

 

            Jack did as he was told, trying his best to keep the uneasy feeling growing in his gut from showing on his face.  He had received the summons to Hammond’s office about 10 minutes ago, and while it didn’t mean much of anything that Sam was here too, something about the fact that the rest of his team wasn’t present was what really had him on edge.

 

            Moving over to the chair next to Sam, Jack sat down carefully, trying to act as nonchalant as possible.  Blowing out a small breath, he spoke up.  “So, what’s up?”

 

            General Hammond studied both of them closely for a moment and then folded his hands in front of him on the desk.  With a serious face, he finally spoke up.  “There’s no easy way to bring this up, so I’m just going to give it to you both straight.  A formal accusation of misconduct has been brought up against both of you.”

 

            Jack steeled himself to his chair.  “What kind of accusation?”

 

            General Hammond directly answered his question.  “About a week ago, an airman working in this facility came to me regarding the two of you.  He stated that he wasn’t trying to cause trouble for either of you, but he felt compelled to report to me what he’d seen.  According to his account, he and his wife were at a local outdoor café recently when he recognized the two of you.”

 

            Jack’s mind flashed back to that very café where he and Sam had recently shared a casual lunch together.  Looking over briefly at Sam, he could see that she was remembering the same thing, along with trying her best to remain calm.  Jack looked back at the General, speaking up with a slightly defensive tone.  “Well, excuse me if I’m wrong here, Sir, but I didn’t know it was a crime to share lunch with a fellow teammate and friend.”

 

            Hammond’s body went slightly rigid at Jack’s tone.  “Careful, Colonel…I’m not finished yet!”  Taking a brief breath, he went on, looking back and forth between both of them.  “I wasn’t referring the accusation to your shared meal…but rather to a more than friendly kiss that he claims to have witnessed as the two of you left the restaurant, hand in hand.”

 

            Jack knew his face had immediately paled in color.  As his heart began to race faster in his chest and his career flashed before his eyes, he looked over at Sam, who was now visibly trying to keep herself from bolting from the room under General Hammond’s gaze.  Jack cleared his throat.  “Well,” Jack said, trying to pull it together as quickly as possible, “he saw wrong!”

 

            Hammond looked directly at Jack.  “I’m not going to counter your answer with a question I don’t want to ask.”  As Sam and Jack suddenly looked at him with confused expressions, Hammond sat back slightly in his chair and sighed.  “I choose to believe that two of the best officers I have on this base would know the rules and regulations by heart, and follow them to the letter.  I choose not to believe otherwise…which is why this conversation was never going to take place…except things have been set in motion that have now forced my hand.”

 

            Sam finally found a voice to speak with.  “What’s happened, Sir?”  She knew her voice sounded weak and pathetic, but it was all she could do to maintain a normal appearance. 

 

            General Hammond addressed her question promptly.  “I had asked the young man not to relay this information to anyone else since I still needed to address it with the two of you, but apparently he must have told someone, because in a few days time, it has gone up the wrong chain.”

 

            Jack almost didn’t want to ask the next question.  “And what wrong chain would that be, Sir?”

 

            Hammond gave it to them straight.  “The one that Senator Kinsey is on.”

 

            Jack could feel his jaw tighten as he took a moment before responding.  When he did, his voice was full of tension.  “Let me guess…Kinsey wants some sort of inquiry.”

 

            General Hammond nodded curtly.  “Yes, but it’s not going to be anything quick and easy.”  He took a breath before going on.  “The Senator wants a full investigation into the allegations.  He has requested to top officials that a full investigation begin immediately…and he’s not backing down.”

 

            Jack couldn’t believe what he was hearing.  “Please tell me their not taking him seriously!”

 

            General Hammond gave him a sharp eye.  “Very seriously, Colonel, and that’s another reason why I’ve asked both of you here today.  As far as anyone is concerned, this meeting is in regards to an upcoming mission and nothing more.  And as much as I pride myself on following the rules and seeing that everyone on my base does the same, I’m not about to give Senator Kinsey anymore satisfaction than he’s already getting from this.”

 

            Jack looked over at Sam, who made brief eye contact with him.  Sam returned her attention to General Hammond first and spoke up.  “So where does that leave us, Sir?”

 

            Hammond softened his expression slightly.  “Unfortunately, Major Carter, my hands are tied.  There is nothing I can do to stop this investigation from happening.  Again, I’m going to choose to believe that these allegations are false, and therefore felt that it was only fair to warning you about the steps that Kinsey has taken.  My informing you could have consequences against me, but then I trust nothing will be said in regards to this meeting.”

 

            Jack nodded.  “Of course not, Sir…we just appreciate the heads up.”  Sitting back in his chair, Jack went on.  “So what kind of investigation has our good senator ordered?”

 

            General Hammond looked at both of them before continuing.  “Nothing simple, you can be assured of that.  Private interviews will be set up for both of you to answer to the charges, and your actions will be monitored closely for one month’s time.  What I’m not suppose to tell you about is that the monitoring includes following your movements off world and on, along with places you go when you’re off base.  And I would also plan on your phone lines being tapped.”

 

            Jack almost came out of his chair.  “But they can’t do that, Sir!  That’s an invasion of personal privacy.”

 

            Hammond eyed him carefully.  “Yes, well, these allegations are on a personal matter, and therefore warrant, at least in the government’s mind, such measures to ensure a full and proper investigation.  I’m sorry, but my hands are tied.  Believe me, I’ve already tried talking to the President, but he’s not going to help us on this one.”

 

            Sam shook her head slightly.  “How are they going to monitor us off world if it’s supposed to be without our knowledge?”

 

            General Hammond answered her.  “Through rather planting a spy in one of the teams that accompany you off world, or choosing someone who is already assigned to this base to keep an eye on you.  Either way, I will not be informed of who this person will be.  The only reason I even know this much information about the investigation is because I pulled some strings in Washington.”

 

            Jack couldn’t believe this was happening.  “And when is this month-long interrogation supposed to start?”

 

            Hammond sighed.  “Right now…today.  As soon as you leave this office, I suggest you keep an eye out…and of course act as if you know nothing about it.”

 

            Jack pinched the bridge of his nose with his thumb and index finger.  “And what guarantees do we have that this will stop after a month?”

 

            The General gave him a look that told Jack all he needed to know, although Hammond confirmed it vocally.  “My personal guarantee, Colonel; I will not allow Senator Kinsey or anyone else to continue this ridiculous witch hunt one minute past the time allowed…and I’ve been personally guaranteed that by the President himself.”

 

            Despite the General’s words of reassurance, Jack couldn’t contain his agitation.  “Kinsey and his pack of bloodhounds shouldn’t be allowed to conduct this investigation in the first place, Sir!  This is ridiculous and you know it.”

 

            General Hammond studied him for a moment and then responded in a softer tone.  “Look, Jack, I’m not going to put my opinion on this situation…and I’m going to ask that you don’t press me further for one.  All I can tell you is that both you and Major Carter have my support, and I’m simply trying to give you fair warning about the weeks to come.” 

 

            Sam and Jack both gave him perplexed looks, and wanting to avoid any further questions, Hammond went on.  “Now I think its time we break up this meeting before someone becomes suspicious.  If either of you have concerns about the investigation or its interference in your lives…rather professionally or privately, I ask that you come to me individually.  Dismissed.”

 

            As the General stood up, so did Sam and Jack.  Offering General Hammond a brief smile and Jack a quick glance, Sam left first and headed immediately out of the briefing room in the direction of the control room.  As Jack turned to leave, General Hammond’s voice stopped him.  “I am sorry about this, Jack.”

 

            Jack, who had been looking in the direction that Sam had just gone, turned back to Hammond.  “Yeah, well Kinsey’s always been a pain in my ass, and I’m sure it’s giving him great pleasure to be heading up this investigation.  It’s just the ammo he’s been looking for to get under my skin.”  Glancing back at the stairs Sam had just taken, he went on, his voice emitting a darker tone.  “I just hate it that he’s dragging Carter into this.  She’s always saving our butts, not to mention his and the rest of the world’s, and this is the thanks she gets.”

 

            General Hammond moved over closer to Jack and lowered his voice.  “Well, if an opportunity ever presents itself for a little payback…”

 

            Jack turned his head in Hammond’s direction and nodded, not letting him finish.  “I appreciate that, Sir, more than you know.”  With that, he left the General’s office, hesitated for a moment at which direction to go, and then finally turned and went in the opposite direction that Sam had chosen, cursing Kinsey’s name under his breath as he went.

 

            Jack shook the memory from his head as he wiped at that sweat dripping into his eyes.  Remembering that meeting had only forced the pace he was running at to increase.  But even though he was breathing heavily, sweating profusely, and pounding the ground with his feet so hard it reverberated into his head, he didn’t care.  Kinsey had in one punch made his life a living hell, but it was the fact that he was causing Sam pain that kept his blood at a constant boil.

 

            So Jack ran on, trying his best to pass this day, just like the last two weeks, as quickly as possible. 

 

 

 

 

            It had been two weeks.  Sam sat at the edge of a small lake near the base and stared out over its glassy surface.  The water, still murky and dark from the spring storms, reflected the beautiful day on its calm surface.  The sky, a bright sapphire blue, cradled the hot yellow sun directly above her, its heated rays beating down on the Earth relentlessly.  The air was also humid, making it harder to breath, though she hardly noticed.  Small droplets of sweat slowly trickled down the side of her face as she continued to sit there; every few minutes, she would take her hand and wipe them away, only to find new ones forming on her brow moments later.

 

            But it wasn’t the heat that was bothering her…it was her heart and the fact that it was breaking into pieces over the ongoing investigation to determine if she and Jack had violated military protocol.  Of course they had, time and time again, but it was a secret that only they and a few others shared.  They had always been so careful and guarded, always making sure of their company before any emotions beyond what was expected were expressed between them. 

 

            But one time, in one careless moment, they had shared a kiss outside of a café.  And now their world was under scrutiny, and everything she and Jack had built was in danger of being torn apart.  For the last two weeks, she and Jack had barely spoken for fear of coming across as anything less than professional, and it was slowly killing her inside.  She had buried herself in her lab and all the work she had there, only coming out for the occasional meal and for the one short mission their team had embarked on. 

 

            But two weeks had taken its toll, so after finding herself making mistakes in her calculations, she decided to brave the outdoors for a run and some much needed time away from everything.  After several miles, she’d arrived at the lake, the very same one that she had playfully pushed Jack into at the very start of their relationship years before.  Deciding to take a rest from her workout, she had found a place along the shoreline not far from the small waterfall that was running strong from the melting snow in the mountainous peaks above.

 

            Sitting down to reflect and take in the quiet of the moment, she couldn’t help but find her emotions suddenly overwhelming her.  As her bottom lip began to quiver, she could feel her throat tightening up as tears threatened to fall.  Determined not to cry, she brought her mind back a short distance over the past two weeks and found herself remembering the interrogation and her encounter with Senator Kinsey .…

 

            Sam felt like screaming as loud as she could.  Sitting in one of the interrogation rooms on the base, the cement walls around her seemed to be closing in, and the cold, hard metal of the chair she was sitting on was becoming extremely uncomfortable.  The room was void of any color, or anything, save the small, metal table and two chairs, one for her, and one for her interrogator.  Of course everything was being filmed, which made her even more uncomfortable, and after almost an hour of practically the same questions, she wasn’t sure how much more she could take.

 

            Trying her best to stay focused and calm, she waited as the man before her made notes.  After a minute, he finally looked up at her and spoke again.  “Alright, Major Carter, I think we’ve got as much as we need for now.  But just to confirm your statement, you are ascertaining that neither yourself nor Colonel O’Neill are not currently, and never have been, in a relationship beyond what is expected of your job as a military member of the Air Force?”

 

            Sam could feel herself losing it.  “Oh, for cryin’ out loud, NO!”  Sam was so tired of having to lie straight to this man’s face, and she knew that with every word she spoke, she was condemning herself to an even great punishment if anyone were to find out the truth.  Looking straight into the man’s face, she continued.  “How many times am I going to have to repeat myself?  I’ve told you all I know.”

 

            The man, a Mr. Blake who had been personally assigned to this case by Senator Kinsey, seemed unphased by her sudden outburst.  Continuing to give her a suspicious and cool eye, he went on.  “And you deny all charges that have been brought against you?”

 

            At this Sam stood up.  “Look, Mr. Blake, I know you’re just doing your job, but this interrogation is over.  I’ve answered all your questions, multiple times, and frankly I’ve had enough of your accusations.  If you have a problem with me leaving, I suggest you speak to General Hammond!”  With that, she turned on her heal, opened the door, and walked out, slamming it a little louder than she intended too. 

 

            With her back against the door, she closed her eyes for a moment and took in a cleansing breath, trying to compose herself before her colleagues saw her.  She wasn’t use to having sudden outbursts of emotions like that, especially during an official interview.  But the man had pushed her to the breaking point, and she was sure he had been instructed to do so. 

 

            Trying to shake off what had just happened, she stepped away from the door and rounded the corner, only to run into Senator Kinsey, who had apparently exited the witness room right after she had and was waiting for her with an expression on his face that spoke of nothing but hate. 

 

            After a moment of just facing off with each other, Sam was determined to walk past him without a word until he opened his mouth.  “Let me make something perfectly clear, Major.  You’re done with your interview when I say you are…or at least until I’m satisfied that all the questions have been answered.”

 

            Sam just stared back at him, doing her best to keep herself from just reaching out and hitting him.  “I did answer all of his questions…all the man was doing was repeating the same thing over and over again, so forgive me if I choose not to have my time wasted.  Now if you’ll excuse me…” 

 

            As Sam started to move around him, she felt his hand come around her arm and grip it tightly.  Looking down at it for a moment, she glared up at him.  “Let go of me…now.”

 

            Kinsey just stepped in closer to her.  “You both think you’re so smart…you can deny it all you want, but I know there’s more going on that what you two lead everyone to believe.  You just finally managed to screw up enough for someone to see it, and now you’re trying to cover your tracks.”  Gripping her arm even tighter, he went on, keeping his voice low.  “But you’re not going to get away with it.  I will make it my personal mission to expose the two of you!”

 

            Jerking her arm slightly to try and free herself from his grip, she winced slightly as his fingertips just dug in harder.  “Kinsey, you’re hurting me…now let go!”

 

            As Kinsey was about to say something else, Jack’s voice suddenly interrupted.  “You heard the lady, Kinsey, so I suggest you do it!”  Jack’s voice growled with anger, imitating the expression on his face.  But when Kinsey didn’t release Sam’s arm immediately, Jack grabbed Kinsey’s arm and dug in his own fingers until Kinsey finally dropped Sam’s arm and jerked his out of Jack’s grip. 

 

            Kinsey just glared at Jack as he rubbed the spot where Jack’s fingers had been.  “You’d better watch yourself, Colonel.  You’re already in enough trouble as it is!”

 

            Jack countered back at him.  “Kinsey, I don’t give a rat’s ass what you think you know…but if you lay one more hand on Carter, you’re gong to live to regret it.”  Stepping fully between Sam and Kinsey, Jack lowered his voice.  “I’m sure you haven’t forgotten our confrontation at her house?  I made a promise to kill you if you ever laid a hand on her again!”

 

            Kinsey just gave him an evil smile.  “You’re not going to do anything, especially here, Colonel O’Neill.  But your defense of her goes a long way to prove my point.”

 

            Jack just continued to look at him.  “I’d defend a snail against you, so of course I’m going to defend Carter.  She’s my teammate and friend…two things you don’t understand.”  Looking back at Sam, he took a step back and then grew an equally unwelcoming smile on his face.  “As for carrying out my promise, I don’t necessarily have to be the one to do it…although I’d prefer it.”

 

            Kinsey snapped back at him.  “Don’t threaten me, Colonel…you don’t scare me as much as you’d like to believe you do.”

 

            Jack crossed his arms over his chest.  “Maybe not, but I’m sure that Teal’c might be able to get a rise out of you.”  At the mention of his name, Teal’c suddenly appeared from around the corner, a dark, towering figure with eyes that were focused only on Senator Kinsey.  His arms were held behind his back, causing the muscles in his arms to become emphasized as they tightened and flexed with each movement he made. 

 

            Coming to stand beside Sam, Teal’c gave her a brief nod of acknowledgment before returning his hard stare to Kinsey’s face.  Standing in one of the permanent shadows in the hallway, only half of his face was clearly visible, and the expression he held on it was anything but friendly.  With his deep-throated tone, he spoke up.  “Are you in need of my assistance, O’Neill?”

 

            Jack, who was watching with amusement as Kinsey became visibly uncomfortable, answered him.  “Maybe.”

 

            Kinsey took a small step back as he pointed a sharp finger at them.  “I will not be strong-armed by any of you…including your Jaffa.”

 

            Teal’c moved forward out of the shadows and came closer to Kinsey.  “I have taken down men much more vulnerable and pathetic than yourself; do not think it would be hard for me to dispatch you.”

 

            Mr. Blake, who had emerged from the interrogation room, stood behind Kinsey looking confused and ready to bolt.  Kinsey took another step back.  “I do not have to put up with this!  I’m here on official business…General Hammond is going to hear about this!”

 

            Jack responded sharply but in a lower voice.  “Go ahead and report us.  I dare you to do it…then you might be able to also explain to the General why one of his best officers now has bruise marks on her arm from where your fingers were!”  Jack hadn’t yet actually seen Sam’s arm, but from the look of pain that had been on her face when he’d come upon them, he knew that Kinsey had left a mark…and for that alone he wanted to kill him. 

 

            Kinsey took a moment to think about what Jack had just said, glancing over at Sam, who was now rubbing her arm.  “This is ridiculous!”  Looking back at Mr. Blake, he continued with an angry tone.  “Come on, Blake.  We’re through here for now.”  Looking directly at Jack, he went on.  “But this isn’t over with, O’Neill.  I may not be successful in proving the truth about you and Major Carter this time, but you can be assured that I will always be watching…and waiting for my opportunity to ruin both of you!”

 

            With that, he turned and stormed down the hallway, with Blake directly at his heels.  They all watched until he’d disappeared around the corner.  Jack turned around and looked at Sam, giving her a small smile.  “You okay?”

 

            Sam nodded.  “I’ll be fine…I’m just getting tired of this.  I think I’d be able to handle it better if this investigation wasn’t being handled by him.”

 

            Jack tightened his jaw muscles.  “Kisney’s an ass, and everyone knows it…at least we have that much going for us.  No one at least on this base is going to give much credit to anything he has to say, least of all General Hammond.”

 

            Sam looked like she was going to respond but then didn’t.  After a moment of silence, she changed her facial expression and spoke up.  “Well, thanks for coming to my rescue.  You both showed up at the right time.  I was getting tired of his endless ranting.”

 

            Jack nodded at her arm.  “Well, I’m just sorry we weren’t around sooner.  That bastard had no right to leave his mark on you.”

 

            Sam gave him a weak smile.  “I’ll be okay…I’m hopefully this will be over soon.”  Nodding in the direction of the elevators, Sam went on.  “I’d better get going.  I’ve got a lot of work to make up for the hour I just wasted with them.”  Not wanting to linger any longer than was necessary, she thanked them again and walked away, without looking back.  She could feel Jack’s eyes on her back and desperately wanted to turn around and just run into his arms.  But with all that was going on, she wasn’t sure how long it would be before she would get to have his arms around her, and that desperately worried her…

 

            Sam could feel a tear tracking unnoticed down her face.  Sniffing, she was about to reach up and wipe it away when she felt a gentle hand touch her shoulder.  Surprised, she turned around and found Jack squatting beside her, his eyes tracking hers with concern.  As she gave him a weak, sad smile, Jack reached up with one hand and used his thumb to wipe away her tear as his other fingers gripped the side of her face. 

 

            Taking her hand, she placed it over his that was holding her face and pressed it in a little more as she momentarily closed her eyes in order to trace the memory of his touch into her mind.  After a few seconds of silence, Jack’s voice broke into her quiet sanctuary.  “Sam, look at me.”

 

            Sam opened her eyes, which were now wet around the edges and took in a ragged breath.  “Sir…what are you doing here?”  Releasing his hand, she got up suddenly, forcing Jack’s hand from her face and causing his balance to waver slightly. 

 

            Jack stood up and looked at her.  “Sir?  Come on, Sam, I seriously doubt Kinsey’s got a spy hiding in the bushes.  We didn’t leave the base together, but apparently we had the same idea…and I guess fate is just being a little kind today.  Frankly, though, I can’t believe we didn’t think about setting up a secret meeting place like this where we could at least talk.”

 

            Sam swiped a hand over her left cheek and then looked at him.  “But that’s just it…I wouldn’t put it past him to have someone following us, even out here.  The man is a snake in the grass, and after all the lying we’ve been doing…”  Her voice faded out as she quickly turned away from him as her tears unwilling began to fall.

 

            Jack reached out and took her shoulders, squaring her to face him again.  He could see how much agony she was going through, and it mimicked his own.  He wanted nothing more than to destroy Kinsey for putting them through this, but he knew that bringing up his anger would not do either of them any good.  “Com’ here…”

 

            Sam shook her head as his arms pulled her closer.  “No…we can’t!  It’s too risky…”  As she struggled to free herself from his grasp, Jack gave her body a slight shake and then took his hands and gripped both sides of her face. 

 

            “Carter, listen to me!  I don’t give a damn if Kinsey does have someone watching…there’s no harm in me holding you.  We need to keep our focus, yes, but we also can’t let this opportunity pass us by.”  After giving her a moment to process what he’d just said, he could feel her body relaxing as her emotions started breaking down.  Pulling her towards him, he wasted no time bringing his arms around her and wrapping them tightly, pressing her body into his. 

 

            Sam’s arms slowly reciprocated, and then she broke down in a wave of tears that ripped at Jack’s heart.  Sobbing on his shoulder, he held her tightly as he allowed her to cry, with silent tears of his own finding their way down his cheeks.  Minutes passed and the world waited for them, with time holding its breath to give them the peace their souls needed. 

 

            Sam finally took in a ragged breath and then relaxed her grip on his body.  Pulling back, she looked into Jack’s face and noted the tear stains on the surface of his cheeks.  Reaching up with one hand, she wiped at them, and then tried to give him a soft smile.  “I’m really sorry, Jack.  I guess these last two weeks have been nothing short of a living nightmare, and I just feel lost in a fog, unsure of which direction to turn and who I can turn to.”

 

            Jack nodded.  “I can understand that…it’s been nothing short of hell, and all I’ve been wanting to do is hold you and reassure you that I’m not going anywhere.  I love you, and I’m not going to let anything get in the way of that.  We can get through this, you know, and we will.  We just have to give it a few more weeks.”

 

            Sam wanted to believe it was going to be that easy, but she knew better than that.  Taking a step back from him, she turned and looked over the small lake before them.  “Jack,” she said, her voice unusually small sounding, “you know it’s not going to be that simple…you know that Kinsey’s not going to just drop this.  No matter what General Hammond does to keep him from officially watching our every move, he will be watching unofficially, especially now that he’s been presented with evidence that points him to the truth of our relationship.”

 

            Jack watched her carefully for a moment and then moved around her to face her directly.  “Sam, don’t tell me he’s actually got you scared?  Kinsey can’t do anything to us…as long as we don’t give him anything while he’s officially investigating us, there’s nothing he can do…even if he finds something out unofficially.  He’d have to explain how he came about the information, and Kinsey’s not one to be backed into a corner.” 

 

            Sam just stared at him for a moment before replying.  “But that’s just it, Jack, I am scared.  I’m scared for us, for what it will do to our careers and reputations if someone finds out we’ve been lying to them all this time, and I’m scared of how this will affect those whom we know and care about…particularly the ones who don’t know we have this secret relationship.  They’re the ones defending us!  So how do you think they’ll feel if they find out that we betrayed their trust?”

 

            Jack shook his head and ran a hand through his hair.  He could feel his nerve endings begin to vibrate.  “I’m banking on them understanding!  It’s not like what we’re doing in our relationship is affecting our jobs.  I think we’ve done a good job at keep that separate for the most part.”

 

            Sam gave him a wry smile.  “And how long are we going to be able to do that?  I just don’t know how much more of this lying I can handle, Jack.”

 

            Jack crossed his arms over his chest.  “Then I’ll retire.”

 

            Sam could feel her frustration mounting.  “But that’s just it…I know you would, but you can’t…not now.  There’s too much at stake for our world, and I know you well enough to know that quitting isn’t an option you could live with.  You’d grow to resent me…”

 

            Jack interrupted her.  “Not likely.”

 

            Sam took her hat off and ran a hand through her hair, gripping the ends of it for a moment.  “You would…rather you can see that or not, if something were to happen to this world after you retired early, you’d blame yourself for not being there to help.  And that would come back maybe not directly on me, but on our relationship.”

 

            Jack threw his hands up.  “Then tell me what to do then, because from where I’m standing, I don’t see any other reasonable options…and losing you definitely isn’t one.”

 

            Sam covered her face for a moment and shook her head.  “I don’t know!”  Dropping her hands, she could feel fresh tears beginning to surface.  “Jack, I love you more than I’ve ever loved anyone, and I know that will never change.”  A runner suddenly appeared on the main trail not far from their position.  They both looked at the man, who seemed to not pay any more mind to them then a quick glance as he continued on. 

 

            Jack watched as Sam looked nervously around them.  Pointing in the direction the man had just gone, Jack spoke up.  “That man is not some hired thug for that bastard…it’s just a guy running.”

 

            Sam shook her head.  “You don’t know that for certain.”  Looking down at her watch, she sighed heavily.  “I don’t know what the solution is, Jack.  All I know is we can’t keep talking about it here.  We’re not getting anywhere.” 

 

            As Sam started to walk back towards the trail, Jack followed closely behind.  “Well when are we going to talk about it?  Because I can promise you I’ll be on your doorstep at 12:01 AM on the first day we’re allowed to go back to living a life that isn’t monitored practically every second.  I’m not going to lose you, Sam…I love you too much and there’s no way I’m giving Kinsey the satisfaction of making our lives anymore miserable then they already are.”

 

            Sam stopped and turned around to face him.  With her voice soft, rather from fatigue or the fear of someone overhearing them, she spoke up.  “I’ve got a mission coming up in a week with the Prometheus to go retrieve a hyperspace engine from an Al’kesh.  We would have already left, but the ship is undergoing some crucial system checks and maintenance and it’s delaying our trip.  After I get back, this whole investigation should be over with…we can talk then.” 

 

            Starting to turn, she stopped and looked back at him.  After a moment, she moved forward towards him and gently placed her hands on either side of his face.  Giving him a sad smile, she spoke up as her words floated over to his ears like a gentle breeze in a dream.  “I love you, Jack O’Neill…never forget that.”  And in the flutter of a heartbeat, Sam gave him a swift yet tender kiss before turning and picking up her run again.

 

            Jack stood there and watched her go until she disappeared around the corner.  Turning to the lake, he suddenly felt a chill that reached into the depth of his bones, and it left him terrified.  On such a hot day, what sense did it make to experience such a sensation?  The only thing he could imagine was that it had to do with Sam…something was on the horizon that had him terribly worried, only he couldn’t place what it was.

 

            Looking in the direction she had just gone, his mind rewound what Sam had just said… “I love you, Jack O’Neill…never forget that”.  If he didn’t know any better, what she had just said almost sounded like a goodbye, but for his sanity’s sake, he didn’t allow his mind to take that notion any further. 

 

Time, always the dictator of their fate, would tell the tale soon enough.   

 

  

 

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